I actually want to change my personality more than anything else. I want to be more confident so that people want to get to know me better. 

I wish to change my eating and diet.I also signed for job center to find another fdream job.

But my face and my hair and every thing just feel plain i wish i change alot but hard for i dont want people to laugh at me.

I want to change everything right about now TT but I'm on the road to it.

Sometimes I want to change myself for the better.Sometimes for the worst.
Sometimes when Im in a good mood, or someone inspired me it makes me want to go out and do more volunteer work, or use my art for good(sewing blankets, fundraising, etc).
Other times, people make me not only want to be blunt, my usual self, but harshly blunt(which i try to have toned down). Makes me want to go out of my way to make other people angry or see the world/themselves for what they are.
But generally I don't do much to change myself. I prefer the way I am : 3.

Been thinking more.

I guess you just have to visualize what you really want and then take steps to make it there. The problem with me is I spend too much time thinking of what I want to change and not enough time doing it. I get fixated on times I've tried to change and failed rather then the small sucesses I've had.

So most of all if you want to change something I think you can't be discouraged if things don't seem like they are going right or problems get in your way. Change can be painful and scary, but without pushing onward you're just in the same place.

Hm time to take some of my own advice.

I want to learn to not be so hard on myself for making a mistake. I work so hard to be perfect at something, when the reality is is that I'm human, I'm bound to make mistakes; no one is perfect. When I make a mistake, I always tell myself that I'm obviously stupid and am not worthy enough to study further into said subject matter that I made a mistake in. Yeah, it's pretty crazy thinking.

I'm terrified of criticism, too. I hate seeing corrections on my papers, even though it's for my benefit that I learn from those corrections.

I need to stop with my OCD perfectionist nature, as it drives me to be over-emotional, and competitive when I don't even need to be. It causes me to be insanely jealous of other students, too. That's where the competitive part of me shifts into high-gear.