I was never desparate for a boyfriend in high school. In fact, I didn't actually like boys much, haha. And I figured I had more to worry about, like sorting out my life.
I had a lot of crushes on boys though. There was one that I thought would have been perfect for me, but looking back I realize how silly it all was. A soulmate is someone you connect with on so many levels, the person you feel most like yourself around, it's never awkward and it just feels right. You know that person so well you don't even need words to communicate.
Neveriana, you're young yet so don't worry too much about boyfriends and all that. Chances are, once you get out of high school and look back, you too will realize how silly you felt about most of those boys.